seriously?

do all the lies and being fake make you tired? because personally i am sick and tired of it. grow up. if you don't fucking like me tell me to my face. and stop acting like you are my friends when in all reality you are constantly talking about me when i am not around. it just gets tiring. really really tiring. especially when you need someone to be there for you and have no one you can trust because you don't know who is actually there for you and who is just going to be sitting there not actually caring what the hell is going on in your life.

and in no way am i saying i am a perfect friend or anything like that..so don't take this as i am. it just really gets to you. especially when someone says the only reason they call for any reason is 'because they don't have any other friends around right now'

i've been at scott's house for a while now and i had fun...am babysitting for them 2 nights a week and i had to take him to the dr's to get a minor surgery and he had to go under so i had to drive and such. it sucked cause i was up at 540..boo. and the baby was up for about 3 hours last night screaming. i dislike the non sleeping of babies. haha. it really bothers me.
roo is back at school and it is making me sad. i miss her already. i am going to see dev next week :] am super excited about going up there and just forgetting about it here for a few days....