mayyy.

happy may! i love this month. love love love it. mainly because when may comes i know that this is the last stretch of school before summer comesss =] which is always the happiest time of the year. and i love it cause it is 3 of the most important people in my life's birthdays! my momma's, my boo's and my boyfriend's. my momma is getting old this year though. may 16 she is turning 50. jeez louise. i am sad i won't be there for it. i don't know what to get her either. am sending her a card and chocolates or something. then my boo is turning 5. i am DEVISTATED that i won't be there for that. i feel like 5 is such a big thing. i don't know. aiden is just growing up so fast i feel like. and the last 2 birthday's i have been with him, so it just makes me really sad that may 23rd i will be taking a dreaded exam as opposed to spending it with the man who has my heart. haha. and then the boyfriend is turning the big 2-0. he is a youngin. haha. i really wish i would be with him too. especially cause i know with his friends things are ganna get nutzo. and cause last year we had such a good time for his birthday. we went down to maryland for sis's graduation the weekend of his birthday and we got back to his house sunday and we got to hang out all day on monday/his birthday. and we hung out with his fam and we went on a date. and it was just cute. it was really cute actually.

i am just sad i won't be there for these 3 really important days. but i am really sad cause i wish i was there for my mom's. i don't know. i haven't talked to her lately, but she seems really sad. and i wish i had the money to do something really nice for her. she deserves it. like i would love to take her to a spa or something super relaxing, but i can barely afford to eat, so lets not kid ourselves here. but last week when we were talking on the phone i was asking about the state parks being closed and all that nonsense that stupid corzine wants to be done cause my dad works for the state parks & we live on state park propert [both of which are included in a park that may be closed down] and she said no worries about our house and daddy will have a job at hopatcong if it goes through, and then she asked if sunrise was going to be shut down, which it isnt, thank goodness, but she thought it was and she was sad cause she has never been, SOOO i think when i go home i am going to take her there. i know it isn't anything toooo exciting, but it will still be nice i am sure. and she usually appreciates the littler gifts than the big ones anyways i have learned.

i am calling the airport to see how much it will cost to change my flight to the 5th or 6th. i just don't want to be here for 8 days with nothing to do...we will see.