grumpy.

i am really grumpy today. and i don't know why. but i am. i think it has a lot to do with not having anything to do. i am done with classes except the 3 finals i have. i went on a walk and ate lunch on the beach today. but it was just way too hot outside to sit there and not do anything.

i also really miss ryan today. thinking about not seeing him at all this summer. except when i go down there in june and when he comes up in august. but it will be good for him to get a lot of work done. and make loads of money. i dont know, but i know this is going to be a hard summer. cause summer is our time. my time to be happy. and it feels weird that he won't be there. my family is going to miss him. i am going to miss seeing the kids with him, and playing ball without him in the road....the phone will be my new best friend this summer....

but in other news, i am fairly happy. because everything seems to be going well, just keep getting thrown curve balls, and it sucks, but what are you ganna do..ya know? just need to get over people, and only have the ones you need to have in your life. because they are all you need.