what i am thankful for.

being as i haven't written in here since i went home, let me just say this: i had an amazing break, saw A TON of people from high school, and only have 11 days to plug and chug through before i go home again..
i am currently trying to update my computer in pan era being as my internet isn't working on campus because it isn't updated enough. COOL. woof. anyways...
so here is a list of things which i am thankful for:
1-my family they are crazyy. they are funny. they are annoying as hell, but they are mine and i would never ever change a single thing about them. yesterday pa was put in the hospital again, and it felt like everything that happened with gram a few years back..right after thanksgiving..not doing well..really sudden..thankfully he is doing better. but i am just SO incredibly thankful to have them here, even if they do not fully support my life and the choices i make, they are always behind me 150%.
2-ryan. he has been there for me so much throughout the 3 + years we have known each other and i honestly can say i have no idea where my life would be without him. he is just such a constant support for me. all the time. and i feel so blessed that i have someone like him here for me. and that he is the person i dream about spending the rest of my life with. i don't ever want to imagine a day without him in my life.
3-my friends. the few and true who i have here for e are absolutely fantastic and i would not want to trade them in for anyone. i've lost a lot of friends and it is always hard, but the truth is over the last 4 years i've learned who is really there and who isn't. and i've cut people out and it has made me stronger as a person. i am just lucky to have those true friends stand by me through everything.. and i just wish that those who are up in heaven know how much they still mean to me..
4-pm. even though we aren't still here, we are. and stronger than ever. these girls have changed my life. i would not still be in virginia without them. they are the strongest girls i have ever met. i would do anything for any of them. and i honestly feel like my life has changed for the better just knowing each and every one of them.
5- field hockey. this sport changed my life. i would do anything to play it again. after going to the alumni game, it just honestly made me realize how much i absolutely miss the sport and want to keep it in my life more than it is now. yeah, i go to games...but i want to play. i want to feel the way i feel when i am on that field. i feel like i am accomplished when i am on that field. and the girls i played with, we had a special bond which nothing could take away. we bled sweat cried laughed and won together. i miss that sport so much and am really hoping we get some sort of summer league together because it would be so amazing to play again.
6- camp. it has done nothing but changed my life for the better. i am so much stronger and more confident in life because of it. i feel like i would not be so certain that i want to be a teacher without it. it let me be ME and love ME and i dont think i would have be able to accomplish that anywhere else.

ok..so things are done downloading now. yayy. hopefully when i go back to school there will in fact be working internet on my computer. the good thing though was i got delicious pane ra out of this. haha. =)

i hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving !!