laa de daaa

i absolutely hate giving these things a title, but at the same time i hate it when they don't have one.
so, exciting news in my life:
-there is none.

woop-de-doooo.

so i think i am feeling poopie again.. i am trying so incredibly hard to not let things get me down, but no matter how much i try i just can't fight this. and it makes me angry that i keep letting things get me down because i am trying so so hard to be positive in life. so here is my daily rant:
i am just plan old tired. there is no amount of sleep that makes me not tired. at all. i've been working out and eating good and i am still tired. i get 8ish, usually a little less hours of sleep a night. and i just don't get it. also, on another note, i am just feeling bleh lately cause i still feel like i am out. no matter how hard i am trying to be in and no matter how in i feel, i still feel like i will always be on the outside. and i hate it.

if my computer gets a virus after this, i am throwing it out the window and robbing a bank to buy a new one. i am so frustrated with this computer it is insane. [disclaimer: i am not literally going to rob a bank]

so in exciting, but boring news: i am seeing ryan and joe and going to new orleans in t-minus 27 days, 10 hours, 6 minutes, 32 seconds. yippppieeee. i can not wait. mostly because this means the semester is dunzooo! but also because i feel like it is going to be the best 10 days with ryan ever!
i don't know if i've written what we are doinge exactly, but i am flying to nola and spending a few days, then we are going to drive north to tennesseeee to see whim and stay the night there [hopefully this is the plan, but we dont know where our stops are just yet] either way, we are seeing her! and then we are going to philllly! he hasn't seen his parents since last christmas so we are spending a few days there before xmas and then we are going to my house for a night [well, i am staying there..] and then we are going to meet back up the day after xmas! and snug and be like girlfriend and boyfriend. hahaa. but i am so excited to drive home with him and to spend time with him =)

beddd timmmee