thunder

We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime. It's easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade. Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be someone I haven't even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you'll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of 80 years. But there's still one more tier to all this; there is always one person who you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of those lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they're often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.
--Chuck Klosterman, Killing Yourself to Live


real fast before i need to turn the comp off cause of the thunder:
-my aunt is trying to set me up on dates. boy #1 lives in Easton is 26 and has a puppy. he is her co-workers son. boy #2 is 24 i think or 23 just graduated from Montclair with a masters or something to be a gym teacher from allamuchy or something.
-i hung out with devy and dan her bf and i had a BLAST at the beach. we are possibly going rafting//camping monday-tuesday and i am beyond excited.
-saw justin [prom boy] and tommy monday night for about 3498 hours. it was awesome. i missed those boys.
-i have been fairly happy for 3 days now :] this is good.