a picture...

so, because myspace and facebook are all creepy and let you know when people put up new pictures, well--someone put this picture up and i was looking at it, and i had to smile...
this is LNC--precamp summer 2006. i vividly remember this night..for many reasons. it was a good night i laughed so hard this night. i smiled like a little kid on christmas morning this night. i laid with my friends holding their hands this night. i had tears in my eyes this night...it was a super amazing night.

now, i am sure if you didn't know what was going on in this picture you would be confused and wonder why a bunch of girls would be standing like this in a circle, but if you know what it is, well at least for me...it gives me a sense of peace and calm..if that makes sense.. every single time we do this at camp, every time, it makes me smile this type of smile that is genuine. i can't help but smile really. i don't know why either..it makes me happy that in a way we all come together, even though we don't all get along. and it makes me happy...and i always look for my 3 at a certain point in the song, because i know that for a second we all go back to the summer we were 16, where everything was perfect...and usually i catch one of their eyes and we send each other a smile, because we know. we just know...

being here has really given me time to think, about what i want out of life. i have been listening to music a lot lately, especially country, and some of the lyrics in the songs, are just amazing..and they can change the way you are feeling, the way you are thinking..it is almost like for a second the lyrics in the songs can change the world.... i want to change the world. not in a big way, cause i am sure i don't have the ability to do that..but i want to one day...

me and my friend erin [falan] have known each other since we were 16 i do believe...we worked at the black forest together, that girl got me through the long nights there, we had stupid jokes at the resturant, kept clear of the mean waitresses and made fun of them...and got such special treatment cause barbara owns the resturant...well, every night there would be that ONE table that wouldn't leave, so we would get food, drinks, hang out and set up for the next day..and we ended up getting really close. anyways, she goes to school at Virginia Tech, and went to Lenape so we live fairly close to each other, and we talk all the time on the computer, well as much as we can...but we both decided we are going to change the world together...and that makes me happy. sometimes it doesnt make sense how good of friends we are, considering we barely see each other anymore, and we dont really know all that much about each other, i still feel like she is such a good friend. and it makes me happy to have her. and that she wants to change the world with me =)

anyways, just looking at that picture makes a smile come to my face--and i wanted to share that with everyone, cause maybe it will do the same for you...even if you don't understand it..
now its time to go write a paper on the Civil War..woohooo.
love from wales,
kelly.crumbs.