welcoming the change

so its a new year and a new adventure for me. i love the unknown almost as much as i love adventures. this time last year i was unsure of so many things and then alabama came along. i have NO doubts that something equally as amazing as Alabama is going to come along. I am just in the waiting process now...which is the crappy part. but you gotta keep your head up every day and not let it get to you...right? so here are some changes i am going to make. some of them make a lot more sense than others, buttt well, the things that don't make sense usually come out making the most sense in the long run for me... so here are some changes that are going to be happening for me...

-i am not going to drink anymore. i am going to try to stop drinking for the whole year. i want to be healthier and happier. and when i drink, even if it is a small amount it makes me angry, i get into these funks and it is so many wasted calories. now, that doesn't mean i am not going to still go out, i will just drink water instead of jack. haha. i also think it will help me personally on so many different levels... now one of my best friends is getting married in may so i will be having some champagne at the wedding, but that is the ONLY time i want to drink.

-i am am changing my room around. i mean, it is so small so there is only so much i can do there... but i am tired of it. i bought new picture frames and am going to hang them up today or tomorrow. i just, i am ready for things to be different.

-i am getting all the people who aren't there for me out. this one is a problem for me. a big problem usually, but i am done being there for people and it never going both ways. i think sometimes i am too nice. i just get tired of being walked over. i mean, i get it...i make bad decisions sometimes-ok, a lot of the time.. but dont judge me. they are MY decisions and i don't regret anything i do, so what does it matter to you? ugh. sorry for that rant...but nice knowin yaaa.

-i want to re-connect with the people who are important to me. mainly jess and court. i miss them both so so much. the two of them were there for me through so many things and it just really sucks that we are almost across the country from each other... i am trying to figure out a way to go to arizona. i almost have enough frequent flier miles to get a one way ticket to az....hopefully this year i will see them both, seeing as they both live in the same stinkin town...

-i am trying to get along better with sissy. i mean, i should while she is still here...right?? before she leaves to go where ever it is she is off too...i think this is working out so far, but i mean who knows. today was a good start. we hung out a little bit and talked like normal people. mainly i complained about this wedding and we chatted about weddings cause we are both in weddings this summer.

i am hoping these changes will make things better in my life. i am ready for my next big adventure. i am. so ready. so whatever it is i hope it gets here fast :)