happy birthday will..

Dear Will,
Happy Birthday!
it's been really hard lately. really really hard. i literally think about you at least seven times a day. all i need right now is to talk to you about everything going on in my life. it's been really hard. i finally got more pictures of us printed out. since having a digital camera I've been terrible at printing out pictures. i have one from graduation, one from Disney, one from the plane home [do you remember sitting with me and we talked the whole plane ride and we snuggled?] every single time i think of your birthday, i inevitably think of the one birthday when we were little, it was at your house and you had fruit punch and my silly mother dressed me in something white and someone spilled fruit punch ALL over me and i cried and you took me into your room and gave me a new shirt. that is when i knew you were the greatest guy in the world. or the birthday parties at the hackettstwon roller rink! ha, we thought we were so cool. and we would "slow skate" with who we liked. gosh, we were so weird when we were little! and we always played in that like crazy jungle gym thing inside the roller rink! haha, i would do absolutely anything to be back there with you right now. it's been really hard down here without you. i check in on your facebook all the time and see who has been talking to you. so many people have been too. did i tell you me and june and maria got together in october? we want to get people together around christmas or in may after school is out again. like everyone from green and a few from high school and do something fun. the 3 of us talk a bit and we all really miss you. i wonder what you are doing up there on your birthday..i hope it is more fun than mine was! haha :) i want so badly to talk to you about so many things. i talk to you a lot when i drive... but you already knew that. i miss you more than i ever knew i would miss someone. i feel so old being 22. no more exciting birthdays. you know, i even got told i was old the other night!! how crazy is that. i just hope you know that i love you more that i was ever able to tell you. you were always the best person i knew and i think you always will be. i hope you have the best birthday ever. and i miss you more and more every day. i can't believe it's been 5 months either. just know that you are with me in everything i do.
Love forever and ever,
Kelly.
ps, thanks for telling me i'd be okay when i cried at your birthday party. you always knew how to make me feel better. love you buddy :)