february

well hello there mr. february where did you come from? i have been home since december 12th and i only have a few more days left :(
this has been the longest i've been home for one period of time since high school, yes since high school.
i dont wanna go back. ew school. just thinking about it makes me want to not go back, i dont know...i just am not in the mood to drive down and just i have to come back home the 20th for pa's birthday, which i don't mind just the drive for a weekend is LONG. and i am going to miss my snuggling with my lions a lot. and my momma. boo for being so far away. but dont get me wrong, i am excited to go back and see everyone. and i have the room to myself, so i get to like redecorate and rearrange it and put the beds together to have a big bed :) hehehe
so, i have had a really good time at home, and i have loved it, but it has been a really weird break. this is the first break where i havent seen tim and dev and it is really sad. like, i felt like something was missing because i havent seen them since the summer. and it is just weird being home and not seeing them. i really really miss tim. which is weird because i didnt really think i would so much, but turns out i do a lot. especially because he's always been here and now he isnt and i dont know, i don't even know what happened. it is just hard..bleh.