drinksss

so, i decided not to drink for the next year. i feel GREAT. i do. i think it is the best decision i could have made for myself. i just get upset because of the new people i am surrounded by. i mean, ok, i am 24 i get it. drinking is a part of being 24-26. it is fun, but do you really have to drink to get drunk EVERYDAY after work. and do you always have to be so loud and obnoxious. i get having a beer after work. i get having a bad day and getting drunk. but everyday!? and beer pong, really? i am just frustrated. i also feel like it is hard to fit in because of this drinking/not drinking thing. they find it incredibly odd. but, i am gonna do what i am gonna do. i mean, dont get me wrong...saturday i wanted to drink. but i think as long as i try to not do it i will be good. i want to do this for myself. i am cutting back on so many calories and bad decisions. and i like it. it doesnt mean that i cant go to the bar, which is frustrating, but i am happy with my decision. i just wish the people i lived with acted like they were 24/25 instead of 18/19. idk. maybe this is growing up? yikes.

anyways, my job is alright. i am not in love, but i dont hate it. i dislike the house i live in and am really only living here 3-4 days of the week. the rest i just go home, but it works cause i am only 20 minutes away. we do a lot of high ropes and team building. but there is also riflery, archery, climbing wall, and nature things. i am hoping things will just get better as they continue on. we are redoing our nature center and i am really looking forward to working on that as well as the garden we are building. we have SO many plants and i am excited for it to be done :)

in other exciting things: the bridal shower is next saturday!! i am so excited about seeing sar and just having it be over with too. i dont wanna stress about it anymore! but i am excited. i loved gettting everything ready with kels and i am SO excited for the wedding! i just want it to be here already! haha :)

hope everyone is loving the warm weather like i am!