ps and nola

i absolutely hate this this post secret is so incredibly true. i wanna be in love again. and it makes me sad that i had it and lost it. but i am completely ready for it to happen again...and i hope that it will soon.

i guess i just really miss having that one person to kind of have there no matter what, to call and tell about something stupid or when i am bored..and to have something to really look forward to.

also, i have decided i am not going to new orleans right now. i will move there before i am 30. i promise myself i will. but i just can't right now, i need to kind of focus on finances and figuring out what i want to do career wise and maybe look into grad school[?] YUCK [but lets be serious, i am really interested in owning a camp/possibly going to school for something to help me with that..] or maybe go and get my education crap so that is a possibility. but i just don't think new orleans is in the cards for right now. plus, i am a big believer in signs and that was just a slap in the face sign that i should not go to new orleans... so i am okay with that, and i think i am okay with that. plus i think that if it was meant to be i would have gotten the job in december instead of being wait-listed...

so here is to semi figuring out my life and being okay with knowing that i will not be in nola come july...and to opening my heart to whatever comes my way in the next few months...

also, we are getting a new girl on wednesday cause yoshi [josh] is leaving the end of april cause he got a real job..so i am super excited to have a new friend! woo.

fun fact-i really miss my friends from college! i kinda wish i was a bit closer so i could see them all again, but i am thinking about possibly going to stop at beach week so that i can see them? but i dk because it all depends on what merlin decides to do..anyways-i wont be around until wednesday cause our kids come mon-wed this week, so i am hoping for a good 3 days with the chillenssss. [and some warmer weather!!]