december 14.

wow....where has my life been?! i am still having troubles with the fact that it is December, let alone the 14th! i am FINALLY at home, and i am just relieved. this has been a crazy, fun, hard, weird, amazing, interesting semester. things were great and then they were terrible, but it was a great first semester at a new school. i know I've made some great legit friends, and that makes me so happy. just a little bit on life lately,
thanksgiving was SO good-i didn't work, which was SO nice to be home and relax a little bit. i had fun with my family, like always except for i spent a decent time with my grandma and grandpa, and it was just so so hard. i miss how things used to be before pa got sick...i dont know, it just makes me so so angry about everything. and it makes me sad to see things going the way they are..but there is nothing i can do about it and i know that, so i dont know what t do....
going back to school for 12 days was SO hard! i had a really tough time going back, and just little things were going on that i didnt want to deal with//was really angry about..but what are you going to do about that..you know what i mean?
i have been really hesitant lately about people who are supposedly my friends and everything. i just feel like i am not good enough for them anymore, and it makes me really angry. and i do not know what to really do. but i dont know. i just am having a hard time with some things. and i know it is weird, but i just am having trouble with life sometimes.
i am fairly happy though. and that is all that really matters. i just guess i am still trying to figure out my life, and it is hard finding out the truth.

i am tired. so i am going to watch ps i love you, cry a little bit, and go to bed..but i am so excited for 6 dayss =]

i just need to know the truth.