i miss dev tim dave bry and roo. i miss all of us hanging out. a lot.
i mean, b just hurts. a lot. that he did this. i mean guess i understand her not wanting him to talk to me? but it still makes me so upset and angry and just it feels weird when we see each other. i miss him. i miss talking to him. i miss having that friend back in my life. what happened to that guy you know? i finally got t back after a year and i am so incredibly happy about that...but i still feel like something is missing.. i hate that his girlfriend hangs out with t now. i guess i shouldnt? i just hate it though. they are my friends. ya know what i mean? does that make me a bad person for not wanting her around? i dont think so? but i just hate that she is around and i am not...
i think that the thing that set it off so much was seeing them all? and not together. like i hung out with t and b one night, d and l the next and then t and l another...and its like i am cheating on the other ones i feel like. haha. and i had a wicked crazy dream last night..we were all together for l's bdday and it was awesome and weird and perfect all at the same time. and it was like it always used to be. and b's gf wasnt there either, so it wasn't awkward and i was allowed to talk to him. ughhh.
so i went to li to see beaks with elaina and it was really fun. i love just being with them =] made me really happy and a lot more excited for summer =]
and i officially am done working at the gs office =] woooohoooo. i have to admit, i had a BLAST doing it though! i really had fun with mips and elaina..making fun of everything, fb stalking, going on texts from last nite and such...and bathroom talks? hahahha. but it was seriously such a good time, minus the PEGINATOR. hahaha. but it was a good way to spend a week and a half =] and getting paid for it isn't too bad either.
oh, my brother is graduating from 8th grade tonight. AHHH. seriously, so weird. right? it makes me feel super old cause i feel like he is my kid sometimes. haha...we've become prettty good friends... here is a picture of him and one of him and his date from his 8th grade dance...oh my little babbyy brudder is grown up!
i am fairly excited for camp so i dont have to live at home anymore...is that bad? oh well.. i am sleeping at my aunts house tonight and maybe fridays? she isnt home and i am house sitting. haha, whatever..she bought me food apparently? and i am just happy not to have to be home. hahaha.
it was super awsome to have jess here, i dont remember if i ever wrote about it? but i loved having her here! we went to high point sp, sunrise, nyc, sea.side, camp, the bar, just a LOT of fun =] i've missed her!
i saw mac yesterday too! which was super exciting =] i was out with my aunt and she called so i went and hung out with her for a while and then we went to dinner. it was fun. and i was super happy to see her!
now i need to pack the trunk annnnd type up job descriptions. before graduation tonightttt. wooo.
